Going for it

 
Have you heard the news?! We are heading back to my home - the Seattle area!!!! There were times when I thought I'd never see the day. For the past six months my mom has been calling and asking, "have you started packing yet?", and I'd laugh and say, "yeah, right."  Then I'd imagine the day when that would actually be happening. It never seemed real - always so far away. And now it is here, and I just want to sing sing sing! (But, I won't because both of my kids are sleeping, and you'd have to be some kind of wack job to wake your kids once they've finally fallen asleep).

She insists on exploring every little thing with all of her senses!

For the past week I've teetered between little surges of excitement that rise up in my chest to head-between-my-knees panic. The conditions of this move aren't ideal. I'm taking the girls ahead while Alex stays behind to wait for his visa and for the café to sell. Our choices were very limited, and in the end, the only obvious solution was for us to move back first, which would give me a chance to get things settled and find a job.

A job.

Oh my.

A job.

Crap.

Turns out that's not so easy.  My teaching certificate has expired.  This is when my head starts spinning and makes it's way back between my knees. Deep breath. Commuting. Deep breath.   Finding (and paying for) full-time day care for my kids. Deep breath. Finding a job in the first place... etc. And to endure this ridiculously difficult juggling act when all I really want to do is make beautiful photographs of people enjoying life and each other's company.

So, guess what?!

I'M GOING FOR IT!

I'm going to take a huge leap of faith and go into business as a photographer.  I'm doing  it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I know that there is a major chance I won't make it. Of course I know that. As naïve as it sounds, for some reason, I just believe it will be ok. Plus, I would much rather give it a shot than wonder my life away.

Man, I'm just full of big news right now! I am finally feeling like I'm gaining back some control over my life, as ironic as that is! Wish me luck. I will put my whole self into this, and try my very hardest.

Oh, and if you're interested in a portfolio-building session, (which will be about half the normal price), I plan on taking between 8-10 in February. After that it will be regular prices, so let me know. I'll be posting very soon about my cunning plan!